Poetry

This is another one from the same night. I wrote this right after writing the previous song. Guess I was on a venting streak. 😅

HIStory

For someone who's guilty about the past

You sure love repeating history

Said you'd take it all back

But you're doing it all again to me

Sit back, think through

Your words and actions have consequences

Speak up, speak now

Why do you run away when it gets kinda hazy?

Keeping things to yourself makes you ruin things

You're so in your head, you don't know what you're saying

"I love you" "will you be my boyfriend"

"I am sorry but we need to end things"

I am this...I am that

"You don't deserve that"

"Better to stay friends"

"Let's be friends"

Fast forward

You keep mum

Wasn't over you and you knew it all along

You didn't want to talk about it

Kept dancing around the fire

I knew you were never mine

And oh my God I tried

Tried to keep it together

Tried to not breakdown

Tried to tell you "I still love you"

Found out I was too late

You were getting laid now

Keeping things to yourself makes you ruin things

You're now in his bed, couldn't forget what you did to me, I live in your head, rent-free

"I love you" "will you be my boyfriend"

"I am sorry but we need to end things"

I am this...I am that

"You don't deserve that"

"Better to stay friends"

"Let's be friends"

Been understanding

Been accepting

I let go

All peace, happy ending

I moved on

Tried the friendship

Thought all was good

But you had a guilty conscience

So now it's

"We're friends" "Talking to you gives me anxiety"

"Seeing you reminds me, makes me feel guilty"

"Need some time, need some space"

"Will reach out to you when I'm sane"

Will you ever be sane?

"I jumped too fast"

"I didn't think it through"

"I took decisions for the both of us without talking to you"

"It hurts to see you like this, feels like a part of me did this to you"

But here you are again

Doing what eats you up at night, morning and noon

Taking decisions for both of us as if it's just yours, this bond was never mine

Maybe none of it was mine

(God I need some wine

Maybe that'll make things fine

Mmmm...maybe fine dine

Hopefully the stars will someday align)